Eugenia's Return? An Ex-Anorexic's Perspective


  1. Somuchduck

    SomuchduckHari Yang lalu

    you called it :/

  2. QueenBea

    QueenBea2 hari yang lalu

    I’m so glad you have the platform you do, there is so much in this video that so many people need to hear. Clear, honest and kind, it’s not easy to deliver harsh truths in this manner.

  3. openmindead1

    openmindead17 hari yang lalu

    You hit EVERY NAIL on the head honestly. I've been trying to say these things for a while. If she was ok she wouldn't be excessively nice to people who abuse her and she would still be off social media getting help until she can openly admit she HAD a life threatening mindset

  4. Kristin Mako

    Kristin Mako28 hari yang lalu

    I always see a lot of people referring to Eugenia’s mother, and how horrible, cynical and opportunistic she is...what’s the story on her mother? I had eating disorders for 2 decades, I know what hell that can be, but I got to know a LOT of others like me, and quite often I saw that mothers/daughters became co-dependents and it spiraled into viscious circles in a couple of cases. Is there any info on Eugenua’s mom that justifies the critique against her? That said, - THAT interview and whole situation was awkward & cringy and you could feel thru the screen that something was really not right in that house.

  5. trvebaphomet

    trvebaphomet29 hari yang lalu

    She's losing weight again rapidly...

  6. Pien Pakvis

    Pien PakvisBulan Yang lalu

    Very thorough and well-put together vlog. I really appreciate finally getting some honest insight into what is going on in Eugenias head, since she will never be open and honest about her anorexia. BTW, congratulations on your own recovery...Is is a shame that Eugenia is still mired in anorexia and cover-up and sick mindset...

  7. daisyhinojosa23

    daisyhinojosa23Bulan Yang lalu

    She’s relapsing too & it’s really sad

  8. robijuli236

    robijuli236Bulan Yang lalu

    i agree w everything u said.. only thing i wanted to mention was she actually decided to stay long past her involuntary commitment

  9. kousetsuhana

    kousetsuhana2 bulan yang lalu

    This is the first video I've watched of yours. Can't believe it's only been a few months!!! Working through the backlog of videos jumping around. Good fun :)

  10. Angel Kane

    Angel Kane2 bulan yang lalu

    Anyone else here after her obvious relapse?

  11. Mai Mai

    Mai Mai2 bulan yang lalu

    3 months later, you were 100000% right.

  12. Vida Make-up Artistry

    Vida Make-up Artistry2 bulan yang lalu

    Your mind is so beautiful! (and your outside of course) Im just so intrigued by everything that you have to say.

  13. JB 001

    JB 0012 bulan yang lalu

    Decent advise. Actually relatable in some respects. I recovered from an eating disorder, but then struggled with OCD & depression. It's a fucking nightmare, but still here (at the moment).


    ONLYNNESIC2 bulan yang lalu

    i hope all people die and wtf is you i touhgt i saw fucking jesus ffs u look like a fucking skeleton that had sex wit half rotten carot and painted himself

  15. Pucci Chucci

    Pucci Chucci3 bulan yang lalu

    Amazing speech and your highlight is poping 💖

  16. Chris universe

    Chris universe3 bulan yang lalu

    And after all that, I was given up on,told I will die and slipped through the cracks of the medical system long ago.

  17. Chris universe

    Chris universe3 bulan yang lalu

    I sincerally hope Euginia can get better,as the older folks know,it only gets worse.For me, I've just never recovered mentally or physically from my eating disorder that began in 1988.I'm 39, childless,never married, and live alone.thats not the problem though. I like being a spinster,but I'm getting older and I don't excactly have anyone to kinda help me with just a few things. I've got a bad left side,and walk with a cane. I can't carry more than maybe 3 pounds. I can't drive and am retired for life.congenital issues aside,that eating disorder was that one thing I could just never....well you know.guess it's a coping mechanism.and I lost almost all my teeth. I'm often told how awful I look,which is,at this point,just as bad as someone telling me how I look "so healthy now". I hope she NEVER has to see this part of an E.D. some folks make it through,the younger they are,and if they want it bad enough, I've seen folks recover from this.theyve gone on to live full lives,not like the way I and alot like me turned out. I ended up on pain management too.worst choice I ever made.without that medicine I believe I would die,it's been nearly 20 years now that I've been on the medicine which just goes worse with Anorexia.

  18. CarelessFreak

    CarelessFreak3 bulan yang lalu

    vampire lady

  19. Madeline

    Madeline3 bulan yang lalu

    Is it appropriate for me to say you are absolutely lovely in this video? Partially because of how well spoken you are and the amount of intelligence you have surrounding this topic, and partially on a purely surface level. Thank you for the tactful and nondramatic way you've approached this topic both in this video and the last about Eugenia. You are such a well spoken women, you don't feed into drama or clickbait or any sort of hysteria, you just speak with a lot of grace and wisdom about a very difficult topic and I really commend you for it.

  20. Rachel B

    Rachel B3 bulan yang lalu

    VERY interesting to hear someone who actually went through this. I honestly don't think she's fully recovered. She's been wearing more sweaters and covering her body.

  21. Emily the loli Nightray

    Emily the loli Nightray3 bulan yang lalu

    I feel like Shane took advantage of her. She was still having issues and he didn't need to drag her on the IDreporter version of Ellen DeGeneres. If she had to have her lawyer with her and everything carefully monitored, it seems wrong to do it.

  22. UniQueLyEviL

    UniQueLyEviL2 bulan yang lalu

    T H I S

  23. shh it's a secret

    shh it's a secret4 bulan yang lalu

    I was anorexic, gained a healthy weight and became bulimic a year later. So yeah Idk 🙄

  24. Mishellyloves Books

    Mishellyloves Books4 bulan yang lalu

    I agree, I think its too fast too soon. And so many people feel like ok shes better, next? And it doesn't work like that. I feel like shes still very sad you can see it in her eyes when she's not engaged in either talking or listening, when theres a moment. I think she could possibly just be thinking ok, this will blow over they think im better, and they'll get off my back then I can do whatever I want. Yes, its very sweet, gotta love how sweet she is, but no, you have to stand up and say, enough thats not ok, either block comments on her videos, deleate comments, I only recently realized you can set those setting on your videos.

  25. Kelli Leann

    Kelli Leann4 bulan yang lalu

    I just subscribed to you. I love you already. You explained this situation immaculately and your voice is so soothing. 😭

  26. Ashley Marie

    Ashley Marie4 bulan yang lalu

    Luckily any video she’s uploaded recently she hasn’t showed her body fully much and I’m also noticing she isn’t wearing skimpy clothes anymore she’s mostly kinda wearing clothes to cover herself up... idk if before she was wearing skimpy clothes to see her body and now she doesn’t want to so she’s covering up

  27. SqueeMachine

    SqueeMachine4 bulan yang lalu

    I felt like I'd been hit by a bus for months while I was refeeding and i had heaps in common with my dad who had chemo brain at the time so she's probably still rebuilding the brain power to speak more fluently XD hopefully she'll keep improving

  28. Alassinsane

    Alassinsane4 bulan yang lalu

    "All the things you'd expect of an eating disordered person you will get because you are being underfed" ....when I was growing up we often didn't eat till about 3 or 4 pm on days when I didn't have school and only a very small dinner when I got home on the days that I did. We were technically quite well off so to this day I'm not sure why my parents didnt put me in situations where I could eat enough of what my body wanted to eat. I got told to put the chips away cus I was getting fat in 8th grade (I was 130 lbs) when I was eating them simply because I was starving. I then went a year+ eating barely anything because my stomach hurt and I felt nauseous all the time. I got taken to the doctor frequently. I drank barium and ate an irradiated egg sandwich so they could tell my mother what was wrong with my guts and why I couldn't eat..... The answer was clearly emotional and not rooted in a physical defect but my mother couldn't see this. I hadn't ever physically been able eat breakfast (or maybe didn't like the food supplied) so this often meant I was surviving on 1 to 1.5 meals a day at best for most of my middle/high school years. I"m still stuck in this cycle. Now it feels like it's not as bad for my body as it was when I was a growing child but that's probably just what I tell myself..... This video hit me so hard. My partner has been helping me come to terms with the fact that just because I don't look or feel "traditionally" like someone with an eating disorder (whatever that means) that I display extreme neuroses surrounding eating, can't eat as much as I need, and often starve myself for financial reasons (a new problem that has arisen with adulthood). None of these are regular eating habits. I often get terribly depressed because I'll be invited to all-you-can-eat with someone, my tummy will growl so hard and tell me it wants me to put in a whooooole plate of food and then about 12 bites in the door closes on the food house and there's a deadbolt with a combination that I've forgotten so no more food can enter. So now we celebrate when I eat a snack before dinner even if it might potentially "ruin my appetite" because at least it means I'm eating. If I count calories its the opposite way that most people do -- it's to say : wow! I just put 300 calories in easily! that's __% of how much I should eat today; good job! This was way longer than I expected. If you read it all, thank you. I had to pause the video after that quote because you kinda just validated my entire childhood and therefore the adulthood I am experiencing now. -DK, a new subscriber

  29. Hanna Hadrath

    Hanna Hadrath4 bulan yang lalu

    I loveeeee you’re curtain on books😂😂😂😍 Me too😂

  30. Alassinsane

    Alassinsane4 bulan yang lalu

    Ugh I'm gonna style my next bloodborne character after you is that ok. On a more relevant note, I'm about 3 minutes in and I already love your content.

  31. I Luv Hou

    I Luv Hou4 bulan yang lalu

    Is it possible she didn't want to "admit" anything on camera in that setting?

  32. MelodysMind

    MelodysMind4 bulan yang lalu

    Can we please NOT call Katie a PSYCHIATRIST she's a therapist with a masters in psychology shes NOT a doctor level degree a psychiatrist has a MEDICAL DEGREE.


    MARSBELLA14 bulan yang lalu

    The reason suicide and addicition is so prevalent is because humans NEED ROUTINE AND SAFETY - look up Maslow and his theory of needs - deep stuff. When we had the large respite centres in the UK where people would be forced to go for anything kept people ALIVE. At the end of the day - we are on an anthrapological level supposed to live in small Kinship towns - everyone should have an equal role and the community should work together. At the moment we have nothing but ''individualism'' we call it freedom - but for those of us who dont feel free and only Alone and Afraid its utter Hell.

  34. useemfakeillmarkuasspam

    useemfakeillmarkuasspam4 bulan yang lalu

    y'all, shane is *not* dumb. Eugenia had a lawyer! his hands were tied. all he could do was drop hints. and he did! we found out so many things by his vid. for example, Eugenia not knowing how to unlock her own door, her mom disappearing once shane stepped in, the lawyer, and if u re watch u will notice WAY more.

  35. Princess Sparkle Pixie

    Princess Sparkle Pixie4 bulan yang lalu

    I was naturally thin prior to my eating disorder, but I did have all the side effects. My hair didn't fall out, but all my molars started breaking and required thousands of dollars to fix (I was anorexic not bulimic, but due to prolonged starvation I could not keep food down). I still have issues with my blood pressure, it went from being dangerously low to experiencing tachycardia. I have a permanent heart murmur now, and have to take medication for it.. I'm years into recovery and I still have health issues, so I don't know how Eugenia is possibly managing so early into her recovery.

  36. DirectorRose13

    DirectorRose134 bulan yang lalu

    Loved this view on Eugenia, i also felt a bizarre vibe from that video... I'd love to see your reaction to Taylor Nicole Dean's heroin addiction video. Big fan of your vids! 💕

  37. Marcy Lynn

    Marcy Lynn5 bulan yang lalu

    I don't understand why there were lawyers in the beginning. I think it was to protect her mother, but from what?

  38. Ron Burgundy

    Ron Burgundy5 bulan yang lalu

    Off topic (btw TOTALLY AGREE WITH YPU coming from someone who has an eating disorder as well .. 😒 it’s like a curse man..) Anyways is it just me or is it weird that people say “she’s so precious she NEEDS to be protected🖤🖤” That’s kinda weird man lol but also yeah she has a “innocent” personality but you don’t know her when the cameras off. I doubt she’s oblivious to what’s going on, to what people are expecting now- what will work

  39. Lana Renee

    Lana Renee5 bulan yang lalu

    What I noticed is that during the years where she very obviously had a eating disorder and looked like she was near death, she made it a point to show as much of her body as she could (because in her mind she looked good skeleton thin) She now makes it a point to wear sweaters, and cover her body that makes me feel like she's either not comfortable that she is gaining weight or that possibly she may have reverted back to trying to eat weight. Her face does look healthier, but in my opinion it really does not seem like she gained very much weight.

  40. Barcy B

    Barcy B5 bulan yang lalu

    I haven’t watched any of her recent videos because they make me uncomfortable. Honestly I’ve never known anyone that had a eating disorder but it doesn’t feel right. I don’t think she’s better. Her household seems toxic and Shane’s video seemed different than his past ones.

  41. guardians animal rescue/ state certified 501c3

    guardians animal rescue/ state certified 501c35 bulan yang lalu

    No such thing as an ex anorexic. Recovered, but an anorexic is always anorexic.......Just like an alcoholic.

  42. Alannah Kinley

    Alannah Kinley5 bulan yang lalu

    Have you not seen Jaclyn Glenn's vids?

  43. Cora Kye

    Cora Kye5 bulan yang lalu

    I remember once I had a meltdown in my bathroom, crying hysterically , because I went 30 grams over the rda of sugar for my age; I was 14. Now I look back and think, wow... What the fuck put me in that mindset because it's absolutely ridiculous! I seriously don't understand how I came to the conclusion that I was disgusting and that my life was over, but that's the thing about eating disorders... There's no logic to it. I'm just glad that I wasn't stuck in the cycle for too long. I turn 16 soon and I can safely say that I'm doing a lot better and although some thoughts are still there; like I *can't* eat certain foods, I'm on my way to a better life. Edit: 2:32 My dad told me that I looked a lot healthier and "Fuller" and that I went a bit too skinny....... That really set me off track and this is EXACTLY how I felt

  44. FallenChocoCookie

    FallenChocoCookie5 bulan yang lalu

    I honestly was glad to see her again but I agree, there's a lot of stuff that's still concerning. Unfortunately. I do hope she'll be able to recover properly though.

  45. Alana Horner

    Alana Horner5 bulan yang lalu

    but is eugenia really anorexic? l knew a girl who was skinny as her but she had a life threatening disease something similar to cancer and she died of it

  46. Lahvi's Delivery Service

    Lahvi's Delivery Service5 bulan yang lalu

    Oh my god a true vampire queen

  47. Danielle Wilson

    Danielle Wilson5 bulan yang lalu

    There are so many conspiracy theories about her still being in danger..right!?! Why cant anyone put together maybe she was yelling out loud "HELP ME!!" Through her videos of her health being in danger.. Maybe She realized she couldnt get away from her abusers so she used her platform SCREAMING for help.

  48. Mo Medusa

    Mo Medusa5 bulan yang lalu

    I think the situation with the mom and the lawyer was more intense than we realize, or exactly like what Jaclyn was saying. I think Shane tried, but was kind of naive, and I also think he wasn’t allowed to say certain things, or wasn’t given enough information. What’s interesting though is that Shane has dealt with ed and still exhibits symptoms of an ed, and idk if he’s been in therapy for it, but idk that he’s the person to do this video, or that he should’ve even put this video up knowing it didn’t say or do anything


    PRINCESA SAMIRA5 bulan yang lalu

    Sorry not sorry she doesn't care about herself so why should we care honestly? Let her work through what's she's going through. Ur spot on about her complete denial of anorexia though. Scary

  50. angel

    angel5 bulan yang lalu

    ur eyeshadow is sO PRETTY

  51. Amanda F

    Amanda F5 bulan yang lalu

    Thank you for mentioning the speech thing, I lost a qtr of my bodyweight due to depression and ppd (I hated being thin but was too sad to take care of myself) but I hid from the world because my cognitive functions, particularly speech, had nosedived. I felt like an idiot but I could see it happening.

  52. Aura

    Aura5 bulan yang lalu

    I appreciate your opinion on this issue. You explain things so well.

  53. B3llet Truth

    B3llet Truth5 bulan yang lalu

    I’m so glad you made a video about this as I remember watching the video you made that was called “the mind of Eugenia Cooney” or something like that.

  54. Galaxy Peacock System

    Galaxy Peacock System5 bulan yang lalu

    Having just seen his video and the whole thing surface so quickly, I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who felt this way about it especially when it comes to commenting on these things so early on. I've had an ED for a few years as a teen up until very recently and even though I'm not bothered by my own weight at this point and I know it's healthy, if anyone had commented anything like that within even the first year of my recovery uuuuh saying that I'd have not taken it well would be a huge understatement of my reaction

  55. em D

    em D5 bulan yang lalu

    Shane is like the Oprah of IDreporter.. he can do no wrong and no one will bad mouth him even when it's deserved. "Val Kilmer bad mouthed Oprah then slowly turned into a pumpkin" So if I turn into a vegetable you know why but here goes... Shane this was too soon! Shane you laughed and joked too much! Shane you made too many comments about your own weight! Shane you did things that Katie told you not too! Shane it was a shameless money grab! Shane you didn't even deal with the real issues or ask the real questions. Thankyou for this video my dear alot more people need to see it instead of through the rose coloured glasses of Shane's video.

  56. Paige Hennigar

    Paige Hennigar5 bulan yang lalu

    your videos on this subject are always wonderfully blunt and very insightful

  57. Zeruda Densetsu

    Zeruda Densetsu5 bulan yang lalu

    I stand on the scale at least 6 times per day now I live with my bf, when I was alone I sometimes weight myself 20 times per day +uncountable body checks in the mirror.

  58. Alex Leatherman

    Alex Leatherman5 bulan yang lalu

    My doctor used to work with girls with eating disorders in a devoted clinic. He never tells me about actual cases but just like many mental disorders, over the years he has shown me how some disorders happen with each other at the same time, called co-morbid disorders. I believe eating disorders like anorexia may also be occurring with a personality disorder, schizophrenia, or even sociopathy, who knows. What you said of the experience in the clinic is true, you will be fed via a tube if you don't at least drink Ensure, take fiber, hydrate yourself, and probably take some pretty essential vitamins and minerals if you arent eating. What these clinics sadly can not guarantee anyone weather they are for drug addiction, psychotic episodes, or eating disorders, is that the patient continues the healthy behaviors learned in the clinic, which is the most intensive care one can about get. It's also extremely expensive for specialty clinics in the U.S. Many patients are young and the families and patients often do not immediately seek help when their symptoms return, to prevent the whole hospitalization from occurring again in the first place, which happens alarmingly often in the U.S. and fattens the pocketbooks of these types of clinics which I find reprehensible. With Eugenia, as much as I care for her, I see a flatness of character where I do believe she is experiencing more than just an eating disorder, and I dread the rush she will get from old habits compared to her new ones. I just wish her the best. Thank you for commenting on this.

  59. DIY Darkling

    DIY Darkling5 bulan yang lalu

    I've noticed that a lot of people with eating disorders were sexually abused as children. When you're raped or molested, you're stripped of control and just ONE traumatic experience of such abuse can have a long-term impact. Anorexia, along with other eating disorders--on a subconscious level--are rooted in an attempt to garter the control that was previously stolen. When you're controlling your weight, you're controlling your body. Along with the bodily control issues, she seems to have an overwillingness to please others. Eugenia's parents are divorced, and she's very secretive about her childhood and her past. Also, the way her dialogue seems very scripted and somewhat vague--as though she's placating someone or avoiding certain topics--all of this leads me to one conclusion... Eugenia experienced some form of trauma at the hands of someone she trusted in her formative years. I'm not saying she's an idiot, or that she's weak, or that she's boring... What I'm saying is that her behavior as an anorexic and as a IDreporter personality presents evidence that she was abused sexually or mentally in her youth. And it's horribly sad. I'm very glad that SOME intervention has taken place.

  60. debbie basile

    debbie basile5 bulan yang lalu

    Yes I agree 100% speaking as an anorexic who has been dealing with this problem for most of my life! And by the way still relapse! It is a daily struggle! Even when I do gain weight I don't consider myself recovered because at that point I'm always miserable!

  61. Jess Rabbit

    Jess Rabbit5 bulan yang lalu

    Side note: Your makeup is epic